I no longer have a girlfriend. Same situation tho. Nobody loved me in the relationship, nobody loved me after. I am just thinking about falling down a flight of stairs and seeing if it helps take a way some of the emotional pain I felt for this girl. I really liked this girl, but she didn’t like being in a relationship. It hurts being in that position. I almost thought of actually killing a guy that hugged her today.
I found myself smiling, not at something near me, but of her. She is perfect. Her smile, her heart, and her style. She doesn’t tell people about herself because she doesn’t want people to worry about her. I worry about her constantly, worry that she would leave me, worry that she will stop caring, and worry that she is okay…. Not just physically. Holding on to so much about yourself for a long time kinda messes things up after a while. I will always care about her, the one who doesn’t have her own opinion. I took a leap of faith on liking her and I don’t regret a second of it. Love….. I do love her. She is perfect, but she doesn’t know it.